Angelic Forecast ~ #266

An eager expression on her wolf face, Moon Dream hops up beside me, then gently lowers herself, and presses close. I wrap my arm around her furry middle, inhale her canine scent, and smile.

I feel Moon Dream relax into a light doze and I join her. We slip into the etheric realm together. A beautiful lush landscape from Earth appears, and we run through the flower meadow toward the towering forest, gorgeous with Autumn leaves.

Soon we follow a forest path, a swirl of breezes caressing our faces. As we crest a rise the scene switches. Darkness slams into my gaze and I'm staring at a Dystopian, bone-chillingly frightening scene.

Black trains, rising black smoke, ugly monster buildings surrounded by razor-wire. I grab hold of Moon Dream's neck fur as the stench of death assails us. Then, I hear the fast march of footsteps opposite our position.

TO BE CONTINUED...
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ANGELIC FORECAST ~

Two themes come into play at this time. The People Rise Against the Vipers.

And...

Now Comes the Great Unraveling of Worldwide Society ... Or, the Destruction of 'What Was' Accelerates

On the magickal, mystical front, as stated in a prior forecast: "... 'true miracles' will take place amidst the chaos and the unraveling that is escalating across the globe at a mind-bending rate." 

Meanwhile, the 'Mages of Ages Lost' spread the GOLDEN CRYSTALLINE ENERGIES with whirling light blades. For, they battle the dark-side magicians who use their vile sorcery to blind humanity to the splendors of the Aquarian Age.

On the personal front, this will be a week of preparation for many as they realize the winter season is upon them, and as uncertainty about the future grows. As well, this is a good time to check your kitchen and set it up in a manner that works best for you.

This is also a great week to simply take time to stroll about and notice your surroundings. When you are inspired from within, make contact with those around you. The energies are perfect for new acquaintances and new friends.  This includes the cyber social world.

On the paranormal front, UFOs crowd the skies and Bigfoot continues to come out of the forest closet.

HEADLINE-SNIPPET: "Bigfoot is real, and now at least one scientist claims there is proof. ~ A group of Sasquatch researchers who have been collecting over 100 pieces of evidence over the past five years screened "never before seen HD video" of the alleged creature at a news conference in Dallas on Tuesday.

The footage, which came from a similar effort dubbed The Erickson Project, led by Adrian Erickson, showed what the group said was a sasquatch moving through wooded areas in Kentucky."  ~gma.yahoo.com/blogs/abc-blogs/bigfoot-evidence-screened-expert-claims-proof-existence-170135552--abc-news-tech.html~

HEADLINE-SNIPPET: "Does this image show TWO Bigfoot creatures? Woodsman photographed 'moving beast' in Pennsylvania… but there is no sign of it now" ~dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2441532/Does-image-TWO-Bigfoot-creatures-Woodsman-photographed-moving-beast-Pennsylvania-sign-now.html~

THIS FORECAST IS CONTINUED AT *TITLE MAGIC* ~titlemagic.blogspot.com~ 

 Angelic blessings from Volcano & Sedona
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Warning!!! The global elite [New World Order] does not want *you* to read this book. See ~ Powerful Dreams at my Kougar Kisses blog.

WHEN A GOOD ANGEL FALLS

~~~ Where angels fear to tread, 2012 Earth ~~~

World weary and worn out, the incarnated angel, Sedona, who believes she is merely human, has three choices after her old van breaks down.

Let the Nazerazzi squad of the North American Union capture her and force her into a FEMA concentration camp.

Walk out into the Arizona night desert, let the wildlife have a good meal with the hope her death will be quick.

Or does she dare trust the mysterious stranger suddenly before her?

Handsome as sin and all in black, he emerges out of the darkness.

Sedona wonders if the stranger on a superspeed motorcycle is her savior from the brutal endtimes.

Or, is he a roving cult member of the New World Order, hunting his next blood sacrifice?

***

It’s only a few days before Winter Solstice, December 21, 2012 ~ The end of the Mayan Calendar.

Sent from heaven to help Sedona save humanity, Zerr Dann knows the Divine is playing its last card on Earth.

He also knows Sedona is about to find out Christmas miracles still exist.

[Angelic Fantasy Erotic Romance]
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Life With Baby Doll: He Said “Yes”

 WARNING:  The links contained within this post will take you to sites with content for mature readers only.  However, this post is suitable for a PG audience

Andrew and John

Twenty-one years ago, John and I married as a perceived ‘straight’ couple in public, but  have lived privately as homosexual lovers. Because of our decisions, Baby Doll and I never got to have an openly gay wedding, other than in our hearts.  Since our coming out together (Coming Out as a Gay Transman and About John Jericho) on September 27th,  I have wanted to renew our vows publicly as gay men.  So this past week, I asked John to marry me again.

On Wednesday night, I told Baby Doll that I had some place special to take him.  I drove us back to the same spot where I first asked him to be my partner over two decades ago.  We arrived at the local community college in Hot Springs  shortly after ten p.m.  The campus was deserted, just like the first time I proposed to him.  This is the place where we first met, so I felt it only logical that is would be a romantic moment a second time.

NPCC College Campus, Hot Springs, AR

In the past twenty years the facility has undergone quite a few architectural changes,  and I  knew that the same bench I had first knelt in front of was gone.  However, I took John’s hand and led him to a walkway that separates some outlying educational buildings from the rest of the campus.   The path is wooded and provided the privacy I needed. The image I have included was taken quite some time ago of the area, but the path in the background is still much the same.

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Dropping to one knee in front of Baby Doll, I took his left hand into mine.  Looking up into his eyes, I remained quiet for a moment.  In the moonlight, I could see the look on his face that I often try to elicit, but this time it shown clear.

“I think you already know why we’re here,”  I spoke softy.

My thoughts and emotions were  running wild, as my mind formulated a series of unspoken fragmented sentences:  ’So campy.  So flamboyant. Everything that a dominant top needs in a gay baby.’  When I finally managed to speak, I realized that my voice had dropped a couple of octaves, as it often does when I revisit my deep emotional and sexual attraction to John.

“Marry me again,”  I asked, “but this time as my openly gay lover?  From the moment I saw you, I knew you were gay.  I didn’t care if you hid it from others…it was never a secret to me.  The type of gay male I desired:  sweet, campy, flamboyant, and with such an undeniably homosexual vibe  walked into my heart and left such an overwhelming need to protect and provide for you as your lover.  I’ve never taken that responsibility lightly.    Baby Doll, you’re everything that a gay transman could ever hope for.  Marry me, John.”

While I had been talking, not only did his gay vibe rage, but I caught the subtle flutter of his eyelids.  When I finished speaking, he nodded his reply, as his eyes filled with tears.  Immediately I rose, pulling him into my arms.  As I cradled his body close, I whispered private words of love into his ear, brief detailed scenarios of our intimacy.

“Let’s go home, Baby Doll.”

****

John and I have not set a date for our vow renewal, however it will be soon.  Until then, I’ve created a Pinterest board titled, Andrew and John’s Gay Wedding that I will update frequently with ideas and images pertaining to this event.

To learn more about this series and find a complete list of archives visit:  Life With Baby Doll.  Due to the increasing popularity of these posts, I have created the permanent tab on my Website that contains information concerning the intense and passionate love affair that I share with John Jericho.

I enjoy hearing from all of my readers, and look forward to your e-mails.  Remember Love is Love…Period.

Andrew K Kinley  is a ManLove erotic romance author for Siren-Bookstrand Publishing  and LGBTQ rights activist based in Hot Springs, AR.  All of his work can be found at:  A K Kinley. For questions or comments please e-mail him at authorakkinley@gmail.com.

Wednesday's Words for October 2, 2013

Life with Tuffy the scruffy puppy doesn’t allow for very many dull moments these days. He’s far more clever than I gave him credit for. He had me lulled into a false sense of complacency. After all, for most of the seven months since we’ve had him, he has slept a lot during the day—my prime working hours.

My daughter had told me that the smaller breed dogs don’t have the same stamina as larger ones do. I believed her because the evidence was right there before my eyes. That dog slept a good 18 out of 24 hours every day. His behavior was regular as clock-work.

The operative word in that last sentence: was.

Over the last few weeks it’s as if the aliens came down and exchanged my happy to be not-too-energetic puppy for a different dog entirely.

He used to let me sleep in each morning. My beloved gets up at 4 am, and leaves the house by 4:45. When he gets up, he also gets the puppy up, takes him outside, and then has “daddy puppy time” while he makes his lunch and gets ready for work. Then he puts the puppy back in bed with me, and leaves. Puppy used to go right back to sleep until I “awoke naturally” or to the alarm at 7:30 if I had the kids overnight, whichever the case may be.

But for the last few weeks, Tuffy the scruffy puppy believes it is his job to make sure that mommy wakes up and knows that daddy has left the building. Then, of course, since mommy is awake, maybe she would like to play?

I have been saying “no” a lot more lately. And I know he understands me. But rather than complying, he has a doggy grin on his face and I know that really, he is just mocking me. “No, mommy does not want to play. It’s not time to play. It’s time to sleep.”

Ah, but Tuffy does not want to sleep. And not only is he a cute, cuddly scruffy puppy. No, sir! He is the big, brave, bold guard dog! Daddy is gone, so it is his job to protect mommy by...barking at every leaf, squirrel, or car that passes by the house—which he can see from the bed, by looking out the window.

Another canine being walked by its owner is cause for DEFCON 3!

Usually, after a few minutes of this energetic, vociferous behavior I do get up—long enough to put Tuffy outside the bedroom, and close the door in his little furry face. I wish I could tell you that the door is substantial and blocks the sound of the energetically barking puppy.

You have no idea how very much I wish I could tell you that.

Only once over the last few weeks was I able to get back to sleep by placing my extra pillow over my head, thus covering my ears. It’s a feather pillow and does a passable job of noise cancellation.

Unless, of course, the noise in question is the sharp, shrill yip/bark of Tuffy the scruffy puppy.

Gone, too, are the fondly remembered mornings where the puppy is content with just a few minutes of play time. What happened to my stamina-challenged little mop head? Lately, Tuffy doesn’t seem to know the meaning of quit, or tired, or go rest or stop!

The other day, the groomer mentioned that at 9 months of age, Tuffy the scruffy puppy is a “teenager” puppy. That bit of information explained a lot, and gave me pause.

I had three children who all became “teenagers”—two of them at the same time. It wasn’t that many years ago, and I remember the trauma of that period of time with horror and gratitude that it came to an end.

I love that puppy and I have no choice, I know it. But dealing with a teenager? I really do not want to go there again.

Love,
Morgan
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Angelic Forecast ~ #265

 
"The war turns our way. It becomes a matter of collapsing their portal."

I hear the undercurrent in his voice. Yet why ask? When I am fading fast into the oblivion of sleep.

"You must stay awake, my Sh’raka, long enough to drink the restoring potion."

At our approach, the door slides open, a bare whisper of sound that is so welcome my emotions flood through me. For, I am with my lion man. And home is being in his arms next to his great heart.

***

I awaken to the sounds of nature, as they would be if Dhuroth and I had returned to his estate. For a split second I question where I am. Cautiously, I blink my eyes open.

No, I am still in the fortress compound. Moon Dream, my wolfess companion, approaches, padding on silent paws. She kisses my hand with her tongue, then gives me a sweet look.

"Beloved," I say, and stroke her head. "How are you?"

She and I have been separated often during this conflict. The training time in my jet, then the mission flights have kept us apart.

'Missing you,' I hear her reply. She lays her head close, and I continue petting her.

"How about a cuddle?" I pat the comfy pallet designed to assist me in recovering full health.

"Not much room, I know." Scooching to the edge, I give her enough space to join me.

An eager expression on her wolf face, Moon Dream hops up beside me, then gently lowers herself, and presses close. I wrap my arm around her furry middle, inhale her canine scent, and smile.

TO BE CONTINUED...
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ANGELIC FORECAST ~

Explosion-Implosion, the World Rocks To a New Vibration

Now the *old ways* combat the *new ways of liberation* in a cataclysmic struggle that covers the entire planet.

On the AWAKENING front, the old-order Vipers brutally battle those who are AWAKE AND AWARE, those of us who are tuned into the 'Great Aquarian Age Transformation' -- meant to lift humanity to our rightful place among the stars.

These ancient-cabal Vipers attempt to stomp out the fires of true freedom and prosperity with war and more war -- with catastrophic weather wars -- with mind-control lies and constant CIRCUS CIRCUS deception.

For, the battle between GOOD and EVIL goes into hyperdrive. Now, the war for souls, for the hearts and minds of the people, reaches its climactic endpoint.

On the personal front, during these coming weeks there will be major changes on the world stage which will likely affect your personal life. This may mean looking for other ways to handle important matters.

Your best bet is to look for unique and unusual options. Practice thinking 'way outside the box'. Also, join with those you love and are able to trust. It becomes more important than ever to help each other, to become a loving tribe again.

On the communication front, now comes the Time of the Whistleblower. With Divine encouragement *Those in the Know* come pouring out of the proverbial woodwork. For the world has arrived at a terrible crossing point.

While increasing numbers of people have told the behind-the-scenes TRUTH... however, now the floodgates open. And open wide.

On the magickal, mystical front, this week the 'Mages of Ages Lost' spin in a symphony of destruction. For, they would destroy the black cloak of sorcery disguising the evil ones.

Meanwhile, the dark magicians counter with the Alien ET card. That is, they will stir the cauldron of fear around the 'arriving space invasion'. Their minions use the cyber world as their tool, spreading massive disinformation about the visiting ETs while tossing out grains of truth.

On the paranormal front, spookier and spookier as the supernatural world comes alive within the AWARENESS of ALL humanity. Also, look for more who are in contact with other races to come forth and speak their truth. This will be showcased on the alternative news sites, on independent internet radio -- there, for those of us who want to know.

In opposition, the global elite Vipers attempt to force their false script about ET *contact* onto the people. This is where discernment, that truth meter in our solar plexus, becomes invaluable.

Remember also, the war in the heavens continues overhead with many races vying for Earth -- the good, the bad, the beautiful, the ugly. It's a wild wild galaxy and galaxies. Out there.

THIS FORECAST IS CONTINUED AT *TITLE MAGIC* ~titlemagic.blogspot.com~ 

 Angelic blessings from Volcano & Sedona
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Warning!!! The global elite [New World Order] does not want *you* to read this book. See ~ Powerful Dreams at my Kougar Kisses blog.

WHEN A GOOD ANGEL FALLS

~~~ Where angels fear to tread, 2012 Earth ~~~

World weary and worn out, the incarnated angel, Sedona, who believes she is merely human, has three choices after her old van breaks down.

Let the Nazerazzi squad of the North American Union capture her and force her into a FEMA concentration camp.

Walk out into the Arizona night desert, let the wildlife have a good meal with the hope her death will be quick.

Or does she dare trust the mysterious stranger suddenly before her?

Handsome as sin and all in black, he emerges out of the darkness.

Sedona wonders if the stranger on a superspeed motorcycle is her savior from the brutal endtimes.

Or, is he a roving cult member of the New World Order, hunting his next blood sacrifice?

***

It’s only a few days before Winter Solstice, December 21, 2012 ~ The end of the Mayan Calendar.

Sent from heaven to help Sedona save humanity, Zerr Dann knows the Divine is playing its last card on Earth.

He also knows Sedona is about to find out Christmas miracles still exist.

[Angelic Fantasy Erotic Romance]
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Her Insatiable Dark Heroes ~ In Print
[Chrontropolis, Book 1]

Stallion of Ash and Flame ~ In Print

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Life With Baby Doll: Openly Gay, Turning Forty, and other Random Thoughts

WARNING:  The links contained within this post will take you to sites with content for mature readers only.  However, this post is suitable for a PG audience.

Andrew and John

This will be my first public post since coming out on Friday, September 27th, as an openly gay transman.  I will admit that I am a bit nervous, but also feel happiness in the fact that John and I can now live the public life we’ve always desired.  In case you have not had an opportunity to read our stories visit the following links:  Coming  Out as a Gay FTM Transman and About LGBTtube.com Co-Founder John Kinley Jericho.

First I am going to address a few e-mails from readers, as I replied to them individually stating that I would answer in my Life With Baby Doll post today. I am discussing these questions publicly for the benefit of others who may not have felt comfortable asking me for whatever reason. As my readers already know, I welcome e-mails and will reply to the best of my ability.  However, hate messages are not addressed.  I welcome the opportunity to be able to openly discuss LGBTQ topics.

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Q.  Similar questions were asked concerning how I identify in regards to my gender and sexuality: 

A.  I was assigned female at birth…identify now as male…I am in love with a gay male…so I am a gay transman.

Q.  I can always tell when someone wants to ask me a difficult question by e-mail, particularly since I began my Life With Baby Doll series.  I smile, and wish that LGBTQ topics could be discussed without embarrassment.  These questions are usually buried within the body of the e-mail, or at the end, after the reader has tried to explain why they are asking.    With that being said, we are brought to more questions concerning my sexual relationship with Baby Doll.

A.  Collectively I will say, it’s okay, really!  I’m not angry, nor am I offended.  It’s only natural to be curious about topics that are not readily discussed, or part of what some in society would consider against the norm.  In my coming out story, I expressed the following:   “Love is love…period.  John and I make love as any gay male couple would.  I think those blanks can be filled in without any other explanation.  However not just in our sexuality, but in our relationship in general, I am the top and John is the bottom.”

As a gentleman, I do not feel like I should share any more details in this post.  In addition is my responsibility to provide not only John, but the relationship I share with him, a measure of privacy.  I hope everyone understands.  I will, though, offer my readers the opportunity to view a short story that I wrote recently entitled,  Playboy28.  The short was published at Siren’s ManLove Authors Website.  The story is about Reed Collins, a gay FTM transman, and his relationship with an openly gay biological male.  For those of you who are familiar with gay lingo, Reed and Levon are more versatile, whereas in my relationship with John, I am the top and John is the bottom.  If one is versed in reading ManLove erotic romance, I think the story is self-explanatory and can be readily applied to any questions.

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Secondly, I turned forty today, and feel like I am exactly where I was meant to be at this stage in my life.  Of course I still have both short and long-term goals, as all of us do.  However, John knew that it was important to me  for us to be living an openly gay lifestyle by the time I reached this age, and through mutual agreement we felt that now was the right time.  One of the best birthday gifts that any gay man can receive is the ability to be openly loving and affectionate with his partner.

I love John’s camp and his flamboyance, and knew from the very beginning that he was the type of gay male that I would desire.  As for myself, I identify as a very masculine gay transman who wants to protect and provide for his partner.  This is just one of many examples of homosexual love, as I consider all types of relationship dynamics special.  Those concepts are also reflected in my writing as well.  I write about men who are tops, bottoms, versatile, and involved in many different styles of relationships.  There is no one way to be a gay male.  The concept of men who love other men is about more than sexuality, but loving the individual masculinity that comprises each of them.

To learn more about this series and find a recent list of archives visit:  Life With Baby Doll.  More will be added, as I continue to update this new site. Due to the increasing popularity of these posts, I have created the permanent tab on my Website that contains information concerning the intense and passionate love affair that I share with my partner, John Jericho.

I enjoy hearing from all of my readers, and look forward to your e-mails.  Remember Love is Love…Period.

Andrew K Kinley (A K)

E-mail:  authorakkinley@gmail.com

Website:  A K Kinley

Coming Out as a Gay FTM Transman

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“What do you get when you cross a gay FTM (female-to-male) transman with a flamboyantly homosexual man?  The answer is simple, my twenty-two-year love affair with Baby Doll.”

Andrew K Kinley (A K)

Dear Readers,

As many of you already know, I am a direct and straightforward individual.  With that being said, there is no need for my coming out story to be a missive full of sugar coated words and euphemisms.  As I quickly approach forty, I am of the mindset that we have to be true to ourselves and openly live the life that we are given.  I am a gay FTM transman who has been in a twenty-two year monogamous homosexual love affair with John Jericho, or Baby Doll, as I refer to him most times.  That has been my gender identity and sexual orientation from my earliest memory.

 For some this is a complete shock, and while those individuals catch their breath, I will briefly address others who have suspected and thought they needed to respect my privacy.  Thank you.  I appreciate your thoughtfulness and kind words, especially during the last six months, as I know there have been a great deal of changes within my physical appearance and how I have chosen to present myself socially. In addition, I would like to thank my publisher for their understanding and support.  Also, I’d like to recognize Lena at Siren for her kindness and professionalism in dealing with me. My story is a fairly simple one, as I seek to openly live the public life I’ve always desired.

In 1973 I was assigned female at birth, subsequently raised and socialized as such by my parents.  Throughout early childhood and adolescence, I struggled with that identity.  I wanted to be a boy.  When puberty arrived, my thoughts were that of a young man. Instead, my body grew breasts and began to menstruate.

By the time I reached high school, my gender dysphoria was at its worst.  Out of desperation, I had done my own research concerning the dysphoria and sexual orientation. After years of confusion, I finally had a name for what I always felt in my mind, body, and soul.  I was privately identifying as what is now known as a gay FTM transman.

Living in a family where sexuality was not discussed, while residing in the Deep South in a time period where LGBTQ issues were equally hushed, I contemplated my own suicide during August of 1991 at the age of seventeen.  The possibility of coming out was not an option at that time, and I felt trapped in a female body. How does a naïve and sheltered seventeen-year-old, perceived as female, even begin to discuss his desire to be a boy?  Furthermore, how does he explain to other young men that he doesn’t want them in a ‘straight way,’ but he longs for a homosexual relationship?

Andrew and John

Two days before my planned suicide, my path crossed with John Jericho.  He was the angel to a soul headed down a path to self-destruction.  The first five minutes spent with John, convinced me that he understood me better than any person ever had, or could. When someone walks into your life and pulls you out of a hell, it is hard not to feel that you’ve been rescued by an angel.  Baby Doll saw my heart, held my secrets, and touched my soul, truly an angel to an answered prayer.  We shared our stories as it became quite clear that our paths had not only crossed for that moment, but would remain forever intertwined.  We kissed that first night, committing to unspoken promises.

Seven months later we redefined our exclusive romance as life partners.  The first time we made love as gay men, it was the coupling of a mutual peace and passion that sought to not only further define me as an emotional being, but sexually as well.  That same comfort and warmth has not been forgotten, and continues long past the first time two pairs of hands sought out the intimacy of their soul mates.

For twenty-two years, John and I have lived in the public eye as a perceived straight couple.  However in our private lives, from the moment we met, Baby Doll and I have been involved in a homosexual relationship.  John and I wanted to legally marry, and we desired biological children.  Arkansas still doesn’t accept same-sex marriages, in 1991 it was no different.  John was out to no one, and neither was I.  We both had circumstances where coming out was impossible at the time.  So we did what we felt in our hearts was the only option for us.  Yes, I am a transman who gave birth.  I know I am not the only one (i. e. Thomas Beatie), and I am sure I won’t be the last.  Today, I know that our decision was worthwhile when I experience the love I share with Baby Doll, and enjoy watching our beautiful straight children grow up.

Now for the curious.  As I mentioned in the opening paragraph, I am a direct and straight forward individual.  I believe that LGBTQ topics should be openly discussed.  With that in mind, I am going to answer a few questions that may have crossed some readers’ minds.

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Q.  What is your physical body like now?

A.  For now, I am what the medical community describes as a Pre-Op, Pre-Hormone FTM Transman.  In layman’s terms I haven’t had any gender reassignment surgeries, and am not currently taking Testosterone.  Since I am living an openly gay lifestyle with my partner, I will be further exploring my options in those regards.  I believe everyone transitions in their own way, and at their own time.  Gender and sexual orientation are not defined by surgeries and / or hormones, or the lack thereof.  Emotionally, my brain and my heart have always been a gay man.  My clothing and hair style are that of a male.  Now, I will be socializing myself publicly as the same gender.

Q. What do you and John do in the bedroom? 

A.  Love is love…period.  John and I make love as any gay male couple would.  I think those blanks can be filled in without any other explanation.  However not just in our sexuality, but in our relationship in general, I am the top and John is the bottom.

Q. Aren’t most transmen heterosexual instead of gay, so does this mean that you are interested in women too?

Gay transmen are definitely in a minority, but they do exist.  I have never been interested in women sexually.  In terms of my sexual orientation, I’ve been a gay male from my earliest memory.  John Jericho and I have been a couple since I was seventeen-years-old.  Sexually, I desire him as another man would his gay lover.  I would also like to mention that gender and sexual orientation are two completely different aspects of an individual’s personality.

Q.  Are you professing to be a FTM transman just to increase book sales?

I have shared my coming out story with all of you because I will not live the second half of my life perceived as something that I am not.  I am choosing to make what I have known my entire life to be a part of my public face.  At the risk of my career as a ManLove erotic romance author, I would still be a transman, even if it meant never selling another book.  Recent statistics have shown that female-gendered ManLove authors have greater book sales than their male counterparts.

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I hope my story has explained where I will be traveling in this journey that we all call life.  For those of you who have enjoyed my writing, that will remain the same.  I would ask that I no longer be addressed as Anita, or be referenced to using the female pronouns, she and her, etc.  My books will continue to be published under my initials A K Kinley, but I will be going by the name that I chose for myself over two decades ago, Andrew Kyle Kinley, for blog posts, and on many of my Social Networking sites.

My partner, John Jericho, also has a new project entitled:  LGBTTube.com – The Coming Out Website.  While I am a co-founder of this project with him, the site and work involved will predominately be his.  However, I will be available as a contributor and a founding member.  In addition, please be sure to read John’s coming out story at:    About LGBTtube.com Co-Founder John Kinley Jericho.

On a final note, I will close with two thoughts.  First, I’d like to share a quote from Kurt Cobain, “I’d rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.” Second, I have a special message for my Baby Doll:

“Didn’t I promise you, Baby Doll, that someday we would be able to live openly as gay lovers.  I believe everything has a time.  First it was our love, then the commitment we share, and now this.  Before you remind me that I am quoting the doctor, I infuse a little bit of myself into most all of my male literary characters.  John, you are the reason that I believe love and commitments exist.  I am alive today because of you.  The pills that were supposed to end my life were replaced with an answered prayer of hope, and a promise of forever. That answer was  you.  As any gay man who is blessed enough to have his own sweet, flamboyant, lover will admit, there is nothing more precious than waking up every morning beside his gay baby.  I love you…from this moment…and forever.”

I enjoy hearing from all of my readers, and look forward to your e-mails.  Remember Love is Love…Period.

Andrew K Kinley (A K)

E-mail:  authorakkinley@gmail.com

Website:  A K Kinley

New Release: CHASING FELICITY - Passion Peak, Colorado 4

I'm so pleased to announce a new release!! CHASING FELICITY is book 4 in my Passion Peak, Colorado series!!

Welcome to PASSION PEAK, COLORADO, where cowboys and sexy Doms compete with the mountains as the best scenery in town.

Passion Peak and its twin, Sleepy Cat Peak, are both visible from the town. The Legend of Sleepy Cat Peak holds that when snow covers the mountain, it forms the image of a large cat. When the snow melts earlier than usual, the cat is then awakened early from its slumber and comes into the town, causing havoc for the remainder of the year...

And as if superstitious legends weren't enough, there's a ghost hunter with a reputation for manufacturing fake phenomena hanging around town, trying to get into historic homes to investigate...

Passion Peak, Colorado is a spin-off series from Racy Nights, and like Racy Nights, this series is MFM menage with plenty of kinky sex, consensual BDSM, and an HEA in every book.

BLURB for CHASING FELICITY:

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Pastry chef Felicity Featherstone falls hard for Dom Maverick Orantes, but he’s not the only man pursuing her. Paranormal investigator Kane Easton arrives in town in search of fake ghost hunter Trace Coleman. He makes no bones about his plans to leave once he’s exposed the man, but Felicity can’t resist Kane’s charm.

Maverick Orantes loved once and lost. He’s reluctant to give his heart away again until he meets Felicity. But Kane has stolen her affections as well, and Maverick realizes she wants and needs them both. As his uncle’s involvement with Trace Coleman’s illegal activities is revealed, Maverick needs both Felicity’s love and Kane’s alliance.

Kane Easton comes to Passion Peak from Connecticut to exact revenge on Trace Coleman for what the man did to his family. But he must leave town once that’s done because of his family and financial obligations. However, if he does, he’ll leave behind the only woman he’s ever truly loved.

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Wednesday's Words for September 25, 2013

Of all the things we look for to enhance our lives, we humans, the one that seems to be the object of the most energy, time and money is happiness. Historically we are so desirous of that quality, that it was mentioned prominently in one of the greatest documents of all time—the U. S. Declaration of Independence.

Television commercials are rife with suggestions of all that you need to purchase in order to become happy. Books have been written on the topic, movies have been made, and entire courses of study have been crafted and taught in our colleges in our efforts to define and condense a definition of happiness and how best to go about achieving it.

Everyone has an opinion about this subject and it should come as a surprise to anyone that I do, too.

First—in my humble opinion—I think we are confusing two words: happiness and contentment. We think “happiness” and the images that come to mind are smiles, laughter, a feeling of euphoria enveloping us, making us feel lighter than air so that we are always up, always jolly...um, no.

If that is how you are and how you feel, you may have accidentally ingested some whacky gas. You need to go see a doctor. Asap.

I believe the definition of happiness that we want is the one that means contentment. We want to know that we matter. We want to know that the work we do is appreciated. We want to love and be loved. We want to be able to work and earn enough money to meet all of our essential needs, and some of our non-essential “wants”. We want to feel good about getting up each day, because we have a plan for the future. We want to know that we are someone going somewhere. We want to have moments in the day when we sit back and say, “ahh.”

How do we manage to do—to become—all of this?

I really do believe it begins with a decision. How we look at ourselves, our friends and family, our environment—this outlook plays a large role. And how we perceive ourselves, and everyone and everything else is a deliberate choice. Do we like ourselves? My friends, we really need to do that. We are the only us we have. We have to live our entire lives with ourselves. So we might as well like ourselves. We can decide to like our work, too—and if we absolutely cannot, then we need to find work that we can like.

It doesn’t happen overnight. We can start by appreciating the small things. The laughter of a child. The beauty of a flower. Does your grocery store sell flowers? Mine does. Sometimes I buy them, but I always stop to look at them, for a moment. What about the smell of fresh bread coming from the store’s bakery? Or the scent of a really good burger from your local burger joint?

Did you know that every day comes complete with one free sunrise and one free sunset—yours to enjoy at no extra charge? You can do things for others that cost nothing. Open a door, give a smile, say “thank you”.

These are little things, but knitted together become so much more than the sum of their parts. If you want to feel good about yourself, then feel good about yourself. You are alive. You have challenges? Name me one person who doesn’t. We all have challenges, except those poor souls already interred beneath the grass.

I believe that finding a sense of happiness, of contentment, is vital to our psyches. I believe that we can control that feeling, by choosing it. And I believe with everything that is in me that once we do, once we start that first bit of deliberately choosing to be happy, then the feeling begins to mushroom and grow within us.

It’s like emotional dominoes. Once you get the first one moving, the rest cannot help but fall.

Love,
Morgan
http://www.morganashbury.com
http://www.bookstrand.com/morgan-ashbury

Angelic Forecast ~ #264

"In the times before Egypt when my race traveled to Earth the human population often feared us. Our scientists and artists joined in learning what sounds resonated with these humans." Dhuroth pauses, and I sense his question before he asks. "Are you well enough, my Sh’raka?"

"Well enough, my lion man," I say, and stroke my jet. "Excellent," I say to her. "Amazingly excellent."

She gives a bit of shake, then purrs loudly, quite satisfied with her performance.

Dhuroth lifts me from the jet, then embraces me close against his large virile chest. I collapse into his arms, exhaustion taking over my limbs.

"I have everything ready, my beloved." My lion man's deep intimate tone seeps inside me like good wine, even as he carries me with fast strides toward our rooms.

"Progress?" I think to ask while soaking in his overwhelming masculinity... and while my head swims with fatigue.

"The war turns our way. It becomes a matter of collapsing their portal."

I hear the undercurrent in his voice. Yet why ask? When I am fading fast into the oblivion of sleep.

"You must stay awake, my Sh’raka, long enough to drink the restoring potion."

At our approach, the door slides open, a bare whisper of sound that is so welcome my emotions flood through me. For, I am with my lion man. And home is being in his arms next to his great heart.

TO BE CONTINUED...
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ANGELIC FORECAST ~

The Truth Puzzle ... Putting more of the pieces together

This week is about watching 'more' of the pieces fall into place. At this time, the ginormous jigsaw puzzle of hidden truths and history that has been deliberately covered up for an age, comes together.

For, the Vipers can no longer stop the blazing angelic spotlight exposing them -- revealing their diabolical deeds against humanity. These TRUTHS must be known to bring about the wonders of the Aquarian Age.

On the personal front, this will be another difficult week for many, especially when it to comes to dealing with catastrophic events. On the opposite end of the spectrum, many will experience a wonderful week with their lovers and friends.

Of great importance now, put your house in order. That is, look for ways to organize your space and hunker bunker down for the coming winter. Anything you can do to make your household self-sufficient and smooth-running -- now is the time.

On the magickal, mystical front, this week the 'Mages of Ages Lost' whirl the Great Forces of the Universe, thus, to continue revealing the dark-soul vipers among us. By their vile acts upon the world stage many more will now recognize these black-soul serpents, and take up the battle sword.

Also, this is a perfect time to open up to your magickal, mystical side -- more so if you are already on that path. For, the cosmic energies spin Earth anew, while the gates between the worlds swinger wider.

On the paranormal front, a particularly weird week ahead. UFOs take the lead, showing themselves in some highly populated areas. The Big Foot tribes continue to emerge slowly. More proof that the mythical beasts once lived now surfaces. For, some in the science community are tired of the lies, and are leaking this information.

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 Angelic blessings from Volcano & Sedona
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Warning!!! The global elite [New World Order] does not want *you* to read this book. See ~ Powerful Dreams at my Kougar Kisses blog.

WHEN A GOOD ANGEL FALLS

~~~ Where angels fear to tread, 2012 Earth ~~~

World weary and worn out, the incarnated angel, Sedona, who believes she is merely human, has three choices after her old van breaks down.

Let the Nazerazzi squad of the North American Union capture her and force her into a FEMA concentration camp.

Walk out into the Arizona night desert, let the wildlife have a good meal with the hope her death will be quick.

Or does she dare trust the mysterious stranger suddenly before her?

Handsome as sin and all in black, he emerges out of the darkness.

Sedona wonders if the stranger on a superspeed motorcycle is her savior from the brutal endtimes.

Or, is he a roving cult member of the New World Order, hunting his next blood sacrifice?

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It’s only a few days before Winter Solstice, December 21, 2012 ~ The end of the Mayan Calendar.

Sent from heaven to help Sedona save humanity, Zerr Dann knows the Divine is playing its last card on Earth.

He also knows Sedona is about to find out Christmas miracles still exist.

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Life With Baby Baby Doll: John's Smile

WARNING:  The links contained within this post will take you to sites with content for mature readers only.  However, this post is suitable for a PG audience.

"One of the best medicines is a baby doll with a sweet infectious smile lying across your chest."

Find out why this thought entered my mind in the early hours of the morning today in my new Life With Baby Doll installment available on my Website entitled:  John's Smile.  

A K





A K Kinley
E-mail:  authorakkinley@gmail.com
Website:  A K Kinley

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